For something new to begin, something else must end. It's the law of balance.
It's not quite what you think though. I am not announcing that I am closing this blog. Not for a while anyways. But yes, something is ending...
For the past couple of months, I've been going through what I can only call, spiritual growth. If you've ever gone through these times in your life, where something shifts inside you, when you see things in a different (and better) light, where all of a sudden, you feel like a child who just started a new grade at school, then you know what I'm talking about.
Yes, it seems I have entered a new chapter in my life.
I'm not going to go in all the details of all this growth I've experienced, as it's extremely personal. But here is what I will say about it...
Almost a month ago, I announced the opening of (another) second Etsy shop. In case you haven't seen that post, I explained how it stemmed from a desire to explore myself creatively as a person and woman, and not just as a mom.
These past couple of years, I have been enjoying creating Waldorf inspired items on Petals and Sunshine. It all started for my children really. I started making toys and nature table items for them. Eventually I decided to turn it into a business, like many other moms.
My kids loved it all. They loved and cherished every toy I've ever made them. They loved waking up in the morning and spotting something new I had created the night before. They loved participating in pictures to post on Etsy. They've been my biggest fans and supporters.
But the truth is, they are not small children anymore. And they definitely don't act like young kids either. Oh how school changes (and ages) them! I struggled trying to keep them little, trying to keep them interested in things they used to love, but I was failing miserably. They too, had started a new chapter in their growth, and I just wasn't ready to move on. I know our job as parents is not to control our children, but to gently guide them in the right direction. And sometimes, the right direction does not mean to keep them in place, but to allow them to grow to their full potential.
So what, that my 6 year old barely plays with her natural (or other kinds of) toys, unless her friends are here for a visit! She loves to draw, paint and do anything artistic. She loves to ride her bike and play in the snow. She is incredibly insightful, compassionate and sensitive.
So what that my almost 8 year old couldn't care less about his gnomes and beautiful handmade animals. He is incredibly active, and when he does play inside (which is almost exclusively with Lego's now), he builds incredible things that I couldn't even imagine of. He shows so much skill in his level of thinking, he amazes me every time. He also has the biggest heart of anyone I know.
Yes, they have grown, they have grown into amazing little human beings. And they are teaching me that it's OK for me to move on too. It's amazing how much our children teaches us. I think we have more to learn from them than the other way around.
All this made me reflect about what it is that is truly important to me, what really matters. Only do what I truly enjoy doing. That it's OK to move on if something I used to love and be passionate about, slowly went away.
In all this reflection, I came to the realization that I don't enjoy making the kids toys the way I used to. It started feeling forced. I truly believe that we should only do what makes us happy in life. I set my own rules, therefor, I can change them to suit my (and my family's) growing and changing needs.
In this realization, I decided to close Petals and Sunshine on Etsy. It will remain open until the items run out. I actually have 2 Christmas craft shows coming up mid-November, so if there was something you were eying, you better hurry! I probably won't have anything left in a couple of weeks. Don't worry, we are still doing our Waldorf traditions that we love so much! Birthdays and other celebrations, nature table, etc. And I still plan on sharing them here. The changes are more for me on a spiritual level, and also on a professional level.
What am I going to do then, you might wonder?
What I love and am passionate about: Helping people feel great!
First of all, I am focusing more on my course in holistic nutrition, and focusing more on nutrition at home. I am working on a class to hopefully start teaching right after the New Year. I am also upping the ante in my own nutrition. In order to inspire people, I can't just talk the talk, I have to walk the walk. And that's just what I'm doing.
It's no secret that I've always been passionate about crystals, and not just because they are pretty and shiny. I've experienced first hand their healing powers, and it's something I am going to start sharing with the world.
I actually have a shipment of crystals on it's way to me as I write this, and they will soon be available for sale on Woodland Spirit. (Along with whatever else I feel like creating, as creativity is not a part of myself that I am closing a door to ;)
I am focusing more on myself, on things that help me feel more centred and happy. That means yoga and meditation. I always meant to keep up with it, but always had an excuse of some sort for not doing it. I actually made a space in a room in my house for this now. Meditation and yoga not only allows me to feel happier, but also makes me a better parent. And perhaps, that can teach something to my children in return.
It's safe to say, my children have taught me something huge: Don't set yourself limits, and stop worrying about what people will think. It's the only way to grow, and you can only go up from there.
I am ready to follow my bliss!
And if you have read this post all the way through, thank you, and Namaste.